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My cherished father passed away.
Im going to miss you more than words can say. Dad you'll always live in our hearts. When we think of you we'll always feel your love and peace.
I'll always be your loving daughter, Maria.

Dear Peter, Amore, Cara, Teressa and Pieta;
We know you were standing right at the gates with Jesus as He welcomed our Dad, Papa, Nonno into heaven.
Im so glad you are all together. It's not goodbye -
We'll see you in heaven!

"Daddy's
AngelBabys`"

This site was lovingly created in memory of our gorgeous baby girl,
Pieta Zollo Semmler,
who was born into eternal life on 12 January 2005 and her heavenly angel sisters,
Amore, Cara and Teressa.
AngelBabys' full story can be found in the Timeline section. Please also visit the Legacy page and make sure you scroll to the end to see all our Angels'.
Soon I will be adding a list of resources and useful information for; preconceptual and pregancy care, pregnancy loss and Lupus Anticoagulant.



"THE LOVE AND THE HEART OF GOD."
Each birth is a reminder, a witness Of the first touch to the world of God's love.
Each child a miracle A reminder Of our created love - All touches.

Reflecting the touch is anew A new understanding Not lucky - love God's love, God's touching tenderness

Like confronting the crucifixion We find hard to accept Such love in such pain. Until we feel the tenderness, Remember the blessedness Of what love preceeded the Separateness - without which No sadness Grief. Deep sorrow is born of deep love.

Like the resuurection and the springtime Flush of new growth, after the embers extinguished Our burning pain, turns to hearts on fire An unquenchable longing Our only desire - The heart and the love of God.
Copyright Maria Zollo 2006 All Rights reserved.







"ABIDE IN ME"
Through my brother's love And Pieta's birth Through life and death All here on earth You touched my heart And yet unseen The love it is you hold for me

I pray & learn - you do not hide I search for thee My earth children - I abide.
Copyright Maria Zollo 2006 All rights reserved.

 Matthew 3 : 17 "This is my beloved with whom I am well pleased."


This is the day that the Lord has made no matter what happens rain or shine we are in the palm of God's hand and held close to his heart. This Day God has made just for us, no matter what happens today is part of God's loving design for our well-being. Thank you Jesus, for giving us this day!
Every time we pray our hearts are joined with Eternity, for God who created the beginning holds also the ending in his heart. Jesus, I know my life is secure in your loving care.
If only we could see just how near you are to us, the lonliest road or the darkest night would hold no fear. Loving Jesus in faith I put my hand in yours . . .
Image and prayer from http://franciscancards.com

"Free"
"Free to speak - even when words are not received. Free to act - even when actions are criticised, ridiculed or considered useless. Free to receive love from people and be grateful for all the signs of God's presence in the world. When I fully believe I am loved far beyond the boundaries of the world, I am set free from my compulsions to prove myself and can live in it and can love the world, without belonging to it, but to God."
Henri Nouwen Psychologist, Theologian

"Light a Candle for you."
Light a candle and I will light a candle for you to shatter all the darkness and bless the times we knew.

Like a beacon in the night, the flame will burn bright And guide us on our way. Oh today I light a candle for you. The seasons come and go and Im weary from the change. I keep on moving on but you know its not the same.
And when Im walking all alone, do you hear me call your name?

Do you hear me sing the songs we used to sing? You filled my life with wonder, touched me with surprise. I hold onto the life and love we knew because that love will never die!
 Ephesians 6:7 NIV
Serve wholeheartedly, as if you were serving the Lord, not men,
1 Timothy 6:12 NIV
Take hold of the eternal life to which you were called.
Joshua 1:9 NIV
...Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go.
Philippians 1:6 NIV
...... being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.
Jude 1:24 NIV
.....Him who is able to keep you from falling and to present you before his glorious presence without fault and with great joy—
Deuteronomy 10:21 NIV
He is your praise; he is your God, who performed for you those great and awesome wonders you saw with your own eyes.


To all my children.
I love you not only for what you are, but for what I am when Im with you.
I love you not only for what you have made of yourself, but for what you are making of me.

I love you because you have done more than any creed could have done to make me good, and more than any fate could have done to make me blest.

I love you because you are my children, my vocation of love. Im humbled because all you are and have given to me is my purpose to give to you.

And yet it is you who are shaping me. You beautfiul, divine, holy souls.
Tiani, Amore, Cara, Mikari, Teressa, Pieta & Jesse.
My children.
You are a constant embodiment and reminder of our created love.
An immeasurable gift. The epitome of love in action. Im so proud and in awe of you; beautiful to behold.
I love you, Mamma.


Dear Lord, Im immensely grateful to be made aware of the spiritual significance of beauty through the wonderful gift of my children. Father never leave their side. Amen.

"Amore, Cara, Teressa & Pieta."
My nights are filled with lullabys Though at times I cannot sleep When my eyes are filled with tears on the pillow as I weep
I pray for precious slumber And visits in my dreams You stroke your loving mamma And her tired face beams
AngelBabys` shining bright Light up the heavens Everynight - AngelBabys` singing sweet Your songs fill the heavens And we’re complete.
Copyright Maria Zollo 2007 All rights reserved.

"We'll remember forever."
We come together, a gathering of parents, mourners To honour our children, our loves For whether your life here was a moment, hours or years We remember – and forever You live In our hearts In heaven Angels Guardians Shaping our thoughts and our lives. We come together, because forever we’ll remember Your preciousness, beauty and love. To acknowledge your lives Your importance Our child Your legacy Gift and grace. For had we had a lifetime We’d love just the same We remember forever as we come together today.
 Silent prayers, thoughts or tears - we release Our hearts broken in pain Pausing now for a moment Uninterrupted - to express Those things society would like best left unsaid. Towards the heavens our balloons rise Higher higher they fly Like butterfly messengers And Rainbows promise of gold As we say our goodbyes - again
We’ll come together forever, and remember.
Copyright Maria Zollo 2006 All rights reserved.

 To our darlings: Amore, Cara, Teressa & Pieta,
We dedicate this balloon release poem to you AngelBabys'.
Mummy wrote it for the occassion of Pregnancy & Infant Loss Awareness Day.
We are so inspired by your love.
Love also to your Uncle Peter, Mummy's Pooh Bear.


 "Wherever we go, whatever we do we'll always be loving you."
Blessings, ZolloSemmler Family. xxxxxxxx


Please watch over Maria's darling Angels, and comfort Maria when she needs it Heavenly Father. Keep her Guardian Angel close to her, her husband, and her beautiful children. Let her feel her dear brother Peter's presence. She misses him so. I ask this in the name of JESUS.... Amen.......... Chris, Brad's mom.

"I finally found my vocation, my vocation is love." St Therese of Lisseux.

Diary Entry.
Rainbows have always meant to me a sign of hope and a connection to the heavens. Like the song "The Rainbow Connection". Interestingly its not only in Christian & Jewsih faith but Norse, Greek and Chineese Mythology that the rainbow is seen as a connection between heaven and earth.
To me the pot of Gold at the end of the rainbow is heaven, unconditional and everlasting love. It can only be reached when our spirits transcends this world and lives in eternal grace with the Lord.
If you try on earth to chase the end of the rainbow it moves farther away!
My children and I witnessed a double rainbow as we arrived home from school on Wednesday 08/08/07. A double rainbow is indeed very rare particularly those with perfect arcs that stretch from horizon to horizon, like the one we saw that day. It was so awesome and spectacular we just sat in our car in the driveway transfixed by this beautiful scene. It only lasted a few minutes and then it was gone. I was tempted to rush inside and get my camera - I probably would have missed it if I had.
It has left me with a peace and sense of gratefulness I have not experienced in a while. I see this as a real turning point in my life, an everlasting hope that just like a forest regenerates from a bushfire my heart is starting to heal from the burning ashes that is bereavement.
Thank you to my beautiful babies in heaven: Amore, Cara, Teressa, Pieta and also my angel brother Peter for this lovely sign.
Copyright Maria Zollo 2007 All Rights reserved




AngelBabys'

AngelBabys’, AngelBabys’, Jesus loves you very much. AngelBabys’, AngelBabys’, Held forever in our hearts. AngelBabys’, Heavens babies’, Jesus loves you very much.
Jesus loves you AngelBabys’, Loves you babies’, very much.
Love you babies, AngelBabys’, love you babies very much. Love you babies, AngelBabys’, forever blooming in our hearts. AngelBabys’, Jesus loves you, loves you babies’ very much.
Loves you babies, dancing babies’, dancing always in our hearts.
Dancing babies, AngelBabys’, dancing always in our hearts. Dancing babies, Heavens babies’, love you dancing in our hearts. Dancing babies, AngelBabys’, dancing angels in our hearts.
AngelBabys’, God is with us, loving dancing in our hearts.

God is with us, God is with us, God is with us in our hearts. God is with us, loving angels, Loving babies’ in our hearts. AngelBabys’, God is with us, always with us in our hearts.
God is with us, AngelBabys’, forever blooming in our hearts.
Forever blooming AngelBabys’, forever blooming in our hearts. In our hearts Heavens babies’, forever blooming in our hearts. Forever blooming, loving babies, loving angels in our hearts.
AngelBabys’ angels’ babies’ forever blooming in our hearts.
AngelBabys’, angels’ babies’, Jesus loves you very much. AngelBabys’, angels’ babies’ love you dancing in our hearts. Loving angels, God is with us, Loving babies’ in our hearts.
Angels’ babies’, AngelBabys’ Forever blooming in Jesus’ arms.
Copyright Maria Zollo 2006 All rights reserved.

 "We are all created in the image and likeness of God for greater things - to LOVE and be LOVED." Mother Teresa.


 "We love and miss you so much our darling babies. We feel your presence in nature and see you in our dreams." ZolloSemmler family.


 James 1:17 NIV
Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows.

"Love is an immearsurable gift."
I lost my brother, Peter 30 years ago last June.
What I learned from the way that he loved me is:
I am special, I have worth & talents and Im deserving of love & capable of loving.
In the years since his death I sometimes think I havent learnt as much, but what I have come to know is : LOVE truly surpasses anything and definitely trancends time.
There is no beginning or end to love, as there is no beginning or end to eternity. I believe there is no begining or end to our spirits - life. Only as humans do we measure, many things such as, our time here on earth from birth to death.
I also believe that we are all created with a divine love - that love is an eternity, a before and after, an is.
That love is real, unconditional and everlasting,
an immeasurable gift.
Given equally and without favour. It is not measured and should not be compared.
Our Creator made no such comparisons.
It is these things, that I've had learned through loving & grieving my brother, Peter, that has shaped my love for my children.
All my children.
Tiani, Amore, Cara, Mikari, Teressa, Pieta and Jesse.

Unfortunately I am called to love four of them via a rainbow to heaven.
My earthly angels have the benefit of 'living' my love for them everyday.
One way I acknowledge that my heavenly angels are special, have worth & talents, and are deserving of love & capable of loving, is to call them by name.

Even though I have only one grave, I have four angels in heaven.
I remember them equally and without favour.
Copyright Maria Zollo 2007 All Rights reserved

 "If the only prayer you say in your whole life is "Thank you", that would suffice." Meister Eckart.


Forever Angels, our four beautiful butterflies - Amore, Cara, Teressa & Pieta.
 "Butterflies."
In cultures all over the world, butterflies are thought to represent souls.
The butterfly is seen as a creature that connects the earth to the skies.
The Aztecs believed that souls of brave warriors and relatives visited the living in the form of butterflies. In Irish folklore, the butterfly represents a person's soul.
Its light and airy wings allows the soul to cross into the Otherworld.
During medieval times, paintings and sculptures of angels showed butterfly-shaped wings.
Copyright Maria Zollo 2006 Allrights reserved.

"How Does One Become a Butterfly?"
"How does one become a butterfly?" she asked pensively "You must want to fly so much that you are willing to give up being a caterpillar" "You mean to die?" asked Yellow... "Yes and no," he answered "What looks like you will die, but what's really you will live"
~by Trina Paulus, From Hope for the Flowers

"The Butterflies Are Coming."
It’s spring! The butterflies are coming.
Many of us at TCF hold the butterfly with utmost regard. For it is the symbol of our child’s life after death.
We think of our children being born into a free and more beautiful existence after the drudgery of a caterpillar’s life here on earth.
But what about us?
Does the butterfly hold an even deeper meaning for bereaved parents?
It seems, in fact, we have died also.
We are never the same after the death of our child.
But, can we be transformed into a beautiful creature, or are we doomed to be trapped in the web of a cocoon forever?
I believe it is simply a matter of choice.
We can stay in the silken threads which we have spun for ourselves. It is quite safe there. Perhaps if we isolate ourselves with a really tough cocoon, no-one can ever reach in far enough to hurt us again.
But if we take a chance on emerging into a new person, the light of our children’s love will have a chance to shine through our newly formed wings.
It won’t be easy. The grief cocoon holds anger, fear, guilt and despair.
But we can work through it. In fact, there’s no going around it. All butterflies must work their way through an ugly cocoon.

The butterflies are coming. Won’t you join them?



Envision God saying the following ......

Imagine a rainbow, begininng in my heart and ending in yours - the colours of the rainbow are the rays of unconditional & everlasting love that I have created and fills every human being - this love exists in all.
Through this love you are connected to all and can never be separated from me or those you love.
This is my gift, freely given to all -
The Pot of GOLD.



Where rainbows rise,
God's LOVE is connecting
your HEARTS and ours -
AngelBabys'.

Our LOVE is wrapped in tears.

Thank you Uyen. Image "Trapped rainbows" used with kind permission of Chiaroscuro. http://chiaroscuro.baltiblogs.com/about.html

Genesis 9:16 NIV
"Whenever the rainbow appears in the clouds, I will see it and remember the everlasting covenant between God and all living creatures of every kind on the earth."
 "Rainbows."
Somewhere over the rainbow Way up high We have angels we dream of Singing a lullaby
Somewhere over the rainbow Dreams come true Where our angels are singing Just for you
Each night we wish upon a star To wake up where the rainbows are Beside you
Where every tear is wiped away And our angels dance and sing and play That’s where you’ll find us !
Amore, Cara, Teressa & Pieta At Jesus’ side Rainbows are connecting Your hearts and ours
Our love is forever connected Our dream is true We've found the Pot of Gold And AngelBabys' it‘s you!

If our happy little angels fly With hearts of love for you and I Then why do we still cry?
Copyright Maria Zollo 2006 All rights reserved.


THE RAINBOW CONNECTION Why are there so many songs about rainbows And what's on the other side? Rainbows are visions, but only illusions, And rainbows have nothing to hide. So we've been told and some choose to believe it I know they're wrong, wait and see. Someday we'll find it, the rainbow connection, The lovers, the dreamers and me.
Who said that every wish would be heard and answered When wished on the morning star? Somebody thought of that, and someone believed it, And look what it's done so far. What's so amazing that keeps us stargazing And what do we think we might see?
Someday we'll find it, the rainbow connection, The lovers, the dreamers, and me.
All of us under its spell, We know that it's probably magic...
Have you been half asleep? And have you heard voices? I've heard them calling my name. Is this the sweet sound that calls the young sailors? The voice might be one and the same I've heard it too many times to ignore it It's something that I'm s'posed to be...
Someday we'll find it, the rainbow connection, The lovers, the dreamers, and me.
All of us under its spell, We know that it's probably magic...
Someday we'll find it, the rainbow connection, The lovers, the dreamers, and me.
Laa, da daa dee da daa daa, La laa la la laa dee daa doo...

Winkin', Blinkin', and Nod
Winkin', Blinkin', and Nod, one night sailed off in a wooden shoe; Sailed off on a river of crystal light into a sea of dew. "Where are you going and what do you wish?" the old moon asked the three. "We've come to fish for the herring fish that live in this beautiful sea. Nets of silver and gold have we," said Winkin', Blinkin', and Nod.
The old moon laughed and sang a song as they rocked in the wooden shoe. And the wind that sped them all night long ruffled the waves of dew. Now the little stars are the herring fish that live in that beautiful sea; "Cast your nets wherever you wish never afraid are we!" So cried the stars to the fishermen three - Winkin', and Blinkin', and Nod.
So all night long their nets they threw to the stars in the twinkling foam. 'Til down from the skies came the wooden shoe bringing the fisherman home.
'Twas all so pretty a sail it seemed as if it could not be. Some folks say 'twas a dream they dreamed of sailing that misty sea. But I shall name you the fisherman three - Winkin', Blinkin', and Nod.
Now Winkin' and Blinkin' are two little eyes and Nod is a little head. And the wooden shoe that sailed the skies is a wee one's trundle bed. So close your eyes while mother sings of the wonderful sights that be. And you shall see those beautiful things as you sail on the misty sea, Where the old shoe rocked the fishermen three - Winkin', Blinkin', and Nod.

"In touch with Eternity."
The faith of yesterday reaches into the reality of my today.
Lord, I thank you for the rainbow, the sign of your faithfulness, please wipe away the flood of sin and despair that threatens to overcome my faith on dark days.

Give me always a rainbow in my heart. You who live and reign with the Holy Spirit, one God, for ever and ever.
Amen.


"Those who sow in tears shall reap in joy." Psalm 126:5



Diary Entry.
Just came back from having a good cry and a liedown. Feel much better now -
The latter is so comforting to me because I usually do this with Jesse falling asleep on my chest. I did the same with Tiani & Mikari.
He still has the gorgeous new baby smell, his skin is so soft, his breath is on my cheek and he strokes me as he tries to settle for a nap.
Jesse doesnt mind if my face is wet and his cooes are so soothing.
I am reminded of all my children as I spend this precious time with Jesse, and I have many thoughts and emotions.

Today I felt my AngelBabys' surrounding me with their love and felt their touch as if they were all caressing my face.
We are never separated. Thank you darlings, Amore, Cara, Teressa, Pieta and Peter.
Copyright Maria Zollo 2006 All rights reserved. .



We also pay tribute & celebrate our earth angels Tiani, Mikari and Jesse.
All of our children are a glorious & wonderful reminder of the preciousness & fragility of life.


 We hope to extend to others the Blessedness our family feels.

 
Images used with kind permission of Mary. http://www.mooseyscountrygarden.com


"How great is the love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God! And that is what we are!" 1 John 3:1



"He will cover you with His feathers and under His wings you will find refuge." Psalm 91:4.


 "There is a sacredness in Tears. They are not the mark of weakness, but of power. They speak more eloquently than ten thousand tongues. They are messengers of Overwhelming grief....... ..........and Unspeakable Love." Washington Irving.



"For compassion a human heart suffices; but for full & adequate sympathy with joy an angel's only." Samuel Taylor Coleridge.



"We remain here on earth to honour their memory through our love and prayers for one another." Maria Zollo.



"This is a journey that needs the company of those who care." Maria Zollo.


"Love is repaid by love alone." St Therese of Lisseux.



"Peace begins with a smile." Mother Teresa.
Tiani, Mikari & Jesse love your smiles!



"Ive heard that little infants converse by smiles and signs, with the guardian band of angels that around them shines. Unseen by grosser senses; beloved one! Dost though smile so upon the heavenly friends, and commune with them now?" Caroline Anne Southey.



"The Lord surrounded me always with love." St Therese of Lisseuex.



"When love speaks, the voice of all the angels makes heaven drowsy with the harmony." William Shakespeare.



"Of all earthly music, that which reaches farthest into heaven is the beating of a truly loving heart." Henry Ward Beecher.


Angels we awake to your glorious music!

Angel stars, angel stars, I never wonder where you are. You are angels called to love, From the heavens up above. Angel stars, angel stars, Amore, Cara, Teressa & Pieta.
Angel stars shining bright, Making all the darkness light. Angel stars twinkling high, Sparkling diamonds in the sky. Angel stars, angel stars, Amore, Cara, Teressa & Pieta.
When the warming sun is set, And my face with tears is wet, You guide me with your blazing light, Twinkling in my dreams at night. Angel stars, Angel stars, Amazing angels, angel stars.

Angel stars, angel stars, Jesus cradles you in his arms; In the heavens, full of love, Singing with the choir above. Amore, Cara, Teressa & Pieta, Amazing angels, angel stars.
Angel stars, angel stars, Mummy loves you, angel stars; Forever held in my heart, Amore, Cara, Teressa & Pieta. Angel stars, angel stars, Amazing angels, angel stars.
Copyright Maria Zollo 2006. All rights reserved.

Eos, iconic original from which Christian angels were imagined.
"Memnon"
My tears are watermarks Which imprint forever Sentient reminders of gentle hopes And dreams subdued. Extant in painful thought they are And sleep afar In caves of ancient echoes Wailing for my perished children Who now guised in angel's silk Sing madrigals of sweet delight And turns my tears heavenward To drift peacefully into the Forgiving canyons of winters night.
Memnon, the son of Eos, Goddess of Dawn, who mourned his death by weeping every morning.
Re-dedication of a poem for Angelbabys by Michael R. Berman, M.D. Copyright Ó 2005 All rights reserved.
Clinical Professor of Obstetrics, Gynecology and Reproductive Sciences Yale University School of Medicine.
Founder and President, Hygeia Foundation and Institute for Perinatal Loss & Bereavement http://hygeia.org
Founder, The Ephemeris Project: Preserving humanism, values and ethics fundamental to the healthcare professional student.
http://ephemerisproject.com


Thankyou for visiting.
Before you leave - please, light a candle for our precious AngelBabys`.


The Sacred Heart of Jesus.

 My heart burns for your love.


Rembrandt's "The Prodigal Son."
Love, Mercy, Compassion & Peace.
 "I sought the Lord and he answered me." Psalm 34:5


 The world is full of beauty when the heart is full of love.


 "We are shaped and fashioned by what we love." Goethe.


 "All human longing is really longing for God." Goethe.







All photo images of lavender and roses used with kind permission of Mary, Mossey's Country Garden.
Thanks to everyone who has contributed to this site; via candles, tributes, prayers and support.
Special thanks to:
Quinn angel mum to Sailor Jana Ogilvie Dianne White Dianne of Jeannes House of Angels Margaret Buonpane Tammy Wright Brandy Corliss Cindy Hepworth Denise Pannell Figgy's twin, Ruth Candy
Other graphic sources:
Angelfamilies. Blinkyou. Chiaroscuro. Fotki. Franciscan cards. Piczo. PD Photo's, some photo images of butterflies. Wikimedia.


    



Amore
ZolloSemmler
6th
 2000

Darling Amore our love, you were our long awaited second child. We cant believe six years have passed and next year you would have been starting school.
Mamma misses you soooo much baby. I remember our first kiss and you were so small, but I am very glad I had the chance to hold you and offer a blessing.

Please don’t be disappointed, we know there are no tears in Heaven, but mummy still cries to hold you again. I know you have fun playing with your sisters and my brother in Heaven cuddle with Jesus and sing with all the angels and saints.
Darling wherever we go, whatever we do, we’ll always be loving you. Mummy, Daddy, Tiani, Cara (dec.), Mikari, Teressa (dec.), Pieta (dec.) and Jesse.
Blessings always-gorgeous Amore!


   



Cara
Zollo Semmler
18th

2001

Dearest Cara, Our precious third child,
Mamma never imagined we would loose you too, especially so soon.
You helped me rediscover my tenaciousness.
Now I imagine your first embrace –

With your sisters, Uncle Peter, Jesus and with us, when we finally come home
“ONE SWEET DAY”.
Wherever we go, whatever we do, we’ll always be loving you.
Mummy, Daddy, Tiani, Amore (dec.), Mikari, Teressa (dec.) Pieta (dec.) and Jesse.

     
11th

2004

Teressa
Zollo Semmler
 Hello darling cherub, celebrating three years in heaven, Oh my how you must have grown! We see your smile and hear your laughter, Imagine your play and delight in the dreams of your hereafter.

~ to love and be loved.
We are so proud of you our darling. Teressa among the blessings you’ve given us Is to know that our tears are drops of love; That we are loved and called to love - Our united prayer of peace.
Wherever we go whatever we do we’ll always be loving you.
We miss you. We love you to the moon and stars and back!

Mummy, Daddy, Tiani, Amore (dec.), Cara (dec.), Mikari, Pieta (dec.) & Jesse. xxxxxxxx

    



Our darling
 we miss you so very much.

Thank you for the many gifts and blessings you have brought to our lives and most especially for revealing to us the spiritual significance of beauty.

We know Jesse sees you and your sisters in his play & dreams, and Mikari feels your presence in our home. What a beautiful tribute Tiani did for you all at school. Have fun in Gods most perfect and beautiful garden angel. Sing loud & strong and let your light shine precious baby! One day we too will join in the chorus, meantime help us contemplate beauty in everything.

Wherever we go, whatever we do, we’ll always be loving you.

Mummy, Daddy, Tiani, Amore (dec.), Cara (dec.), Mikari, Teressa (dec.), and Jesse.


    


My precious brother
PETER ZOLLO
was called home to the Father on
24th June 1976,
he died instantly in a car accident
four days before his 18th birthday.

Dear Peter I often wonder about that dark, winter's Thursday night 30 years ago. You were driving on your own to footy practice after a days work. You were always loving and happy, but I guess especially so at this particular time. You had a job you loved, many friends and we had a wonderful party planned for Saturday night since your birthday was Monday. I was home fascinated by the new 3 in 1 stereo you had purchased with the help of mum and dad for your birthday. It was the latest model and even had auxiallary inputs and provision for quad sound. I was just as excited as you about your party. I felt very grown up because I had such a cute and older brother I thought I was very sophisticated. I was waiting up for you to get home from footy practice, even though I knew you would be late, I always looked forward to seeing you. You thought and made me feel like I was the most important person in the world. You were always helping me with sporty things, taking me on adventures around the farm, showing me all the skills and tricks you learnt in Scouts. You said I had the voice of an angel and you never tired of hearing me sing. There are so many more treasured memories, like how we used to make movies together with the 8mm camera and how you would let me join you & your friends when they came over. Most of all it is the gift of your love that has shaped me as a mother that I carry in my heart for eternity.
"We are all special, have worth and talents and are deserving of love and capable of loving."
I love you my buddy, bro. Maria. xxxxxxxxxxx
 1 Peter 2:2 NIV
Like newborn babies - crave pure spiritual milk, so that by it you may grow up in your salvation .....


my hero,
my encourager,
my brother,
my "Pooh Bear".


“If ever there is tomorrow when we're not together there is something you must always remember. You are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. But the most important thing is, even if we're apart ............ I'll always be with you.”
Christopher Robin to Winnie the Pooh. A.A. Milne.



“Because I cry.”
You think I’m weak because I cry In open and without shame. You think your smart because you wont allow yourself To express your pain.
You judge and you criticize You think you know me now I can tell you You never knew me anyhow.
You think I’m weak because I pray And ask you for your prayers. You think my faith is weak and yours is strong Because you wont let pain tear you up and leave a whole inside.
You snigger and you gossip You think I’ve lost a brain. You think you know what’s best for me, Because you tell me over and over, again and again.
You think I’m weak because I cry And want to speak their name You think I’m a looser now, without hope, and Never to be productive again.
My tears are a gift from God in honour of my love They cleanse my soul and allow me to see The pain of others And encourage them on their journey.
My prayers make me strong - enough To withstand anything, But more importantly To understand - suffering.
Allowing a voice to my feelings Wins me many treasures Of memories, better mourned here on earth For there are no tears in Heaven.
My tears are productive now, for I can understand My strength and Bless others with my love. Walk with them in faith and the knowledge - There’s no greater joy than what Heaven has in store!
I think I am gifted - With Grace Because I cry.
Copyright Maria Zollo 2006 Allrights reserved.

At 11.00pm on 12 th Januay 2005, Pieta, our sixth baby girl was brought forth into the world after induced labour.
 At a routinue Obstericians check no heartbeat was found.

The most probable cause of death was a blood clot in the placenta, brought about by a medical condition in her mother, Lupus anticoagulant.

Pieta is preceded in death by her angel sisters, Amore on 6th November 2000, Cara on 18 February 2001 & Teressa on 11 June 2004, also most likely caused by Lupus anticoagulant.

As a young child I also lost my hero, encourager, best friend - my brother, AngelBabys' Uncle Peter.

"She was perfect as can be."
I’m bleeding. Am I loosing my baby? Can I stop it from happening? What are the signs? What do I do if .............? What is a D&C? Does the surgery cause any damage? Should I wait? What does this mean on my medical form? How do I explain what happened? What causes pregnancy loss? How can I stop it from happening again? Will I ever be able to have more children? How often does this happen? Will it ever happen again?
Why can’t anyone tell me why my baby died? How soon can I get pregnant again? Why are there so many different answers to that question? Will my cycles go back to normal? And when will I stop bleeding? Why do I feel so sick and totally exhausted? When will I feel better? Did I do anything wrong? How do I know if I am ovulating? Could it possibly happen again?
I name our baby Amore, and have a memorial in our home, just a few friends and family. We already have a healthy baby; maybe this means it was just a one-time thing. Guess what? Three months later it happened again. Should I save the tissue? Can we start testing? Will I get our baby’s remains after? Our precious Cara. What? Why do we have to wait for three pregnancy losses before testing? It couldn’t possibly happen again? Your chances are increased now. How can I get pregnant faster? Will stress cause another pregnancy loss? Just try to remain calm. I am so sad, so angry. Am I going crazy? Should I be worried about my thoughts? Why won’t anyone talk about my babies? Why isn’t my husband just as sad? It’s such a common thing. Why is everyone saying such stupid & thoughtless words? Like, "Never mind, it wasn’t as bad this time. At least you have one daughter." How do I handle all the questions, their directions? How do I get through the first days back at church, school, store etc.? I tell my child, it’s like a rose whose petals fly when they die. I tell all of the people I know of my pain. Some stay, some go - Thank God, He's right by my side or I wouldn’t have survived.
Months pass of consuming anxiety, guilt and panic attacks. What are my chances of a pregnancy loss after one, two, or more? You know the answer to that. Then a calm, the peace that surpasses all understanding floods over me. A year later our second earth angel is born. I feel superhuman, invincible. Still its nine months before I sleep through the night. This was just a once off thing even if it happened twice. I want so much to complete our family. I’m pregnant again, what delight. What’s that? Should I check, lots of trips to the bathroom and then yes. This time its blood. I’ve been spotting and cramping for weeks. When will it end? Is it normal for the bleeding to stop and start again? Why do I still feel pregnant? Pregnancy, confirmed ended. Teressa, my daughter names her. How many pregnancy losses are too many?
I’ve had three pregnancy losses now, and your still saying I don’t need testing?
Why am I so jealous of pregnant women? What did I do wrong? I thought it was just a once off thing, that’s already happened now three times. I don’t have any remains, what shall I do? Chaplain at the hospital organised a nice memorial. I’ve lost my immunity to Rubella, get a shot. Now I must not get pregnant in the next 3 months. It’s alright I’m not even alive. I’m the walking wounded, there's nothing that can console. I can’t go out. I cry all the time. God's grace gives me tenacity and yes I’m pregnant first go. Three months pass, lucky at last. Ill have three in heaven and three on earth. I scream out loud, the sales lady comes running, Sit down" she says, there's blood on the carpet, "I'll get you a towel."
The irony did not escape me; I was purchasing a maternity bra. The ultrasound was good, my precious baby alive. I know the drill. Another two weeks pass, bleeding stops, Can’t think the worst. Christmas and New Year pass, another appointment. It can’t be right. No heartbeat. Not me. It’s someone else. Another ultrasound. Sorry no heartbeat found. Please sign these forms, your uterus could rupture. Not very likely but then you haven’t had much luck have ya? You've never had labour; we don’t know how long it will take, maybe today or tomorrow or a couple of days. I’m not really here, this can’t be happening; it’s not really me. What if the doctor is wrong? Fourteen hours later our beautiful girl is born
 with a smile on her face and in that instant the physical pain was gone.
Our Pieta's body is held for more than a week. I organised the funeral. My husband through tears could not speak. How do I face my cousin she's pregnant still, but not me? She has a girl too; it takes me a year almost to see. How do I handle, being alive? What’s birthdays, anniversaries, Christmas? Just where can I go to hide?
Oh I see, if they had tested after three, I would have known it was a blood clotting disorder, because

she was perfect as can be.
Copyright Maria Zollo 2007. All rights reserved.



We thank everyone most sincerely for their kind words, prayers, friendship and wishes. We have received many fold than we have given in life and feel truly blessed even though there are still days we find difficult.
If we have ever made a difference or helped anyone in anyway it is truly the Lords doing, we first receive His love and then we share it.
We truly hope for you all to feel His great unconditional and everlasting love for us.
Im sincerely praying for peace and blessings for all of us, with memories held close in our hearts may we remember the joy of the love that we share.
Having shared in the first miracle of the birth of a child, who is the promise of hope and redemption, let us remember the awesome touch of our first creation as with Adam.
I pray you can remember and feel the many touches of love you have in your lives and have the courage to share this with others.
Wishing everyone a very Peaceful Christmas & New Year. All my love and hugs for you, and your angels.
Maria and family. xxxxxxxx
 Hebrews 12:1 NIV
"Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us."


 TCF Candlelighting 2007 Adelaide Remembering our angels.


 Let us pray:
God of creation, we gather to give you thanks. Thank you for our children of all ages who enrich and have enriched our lives. They are your gift to us and we are grateful for them.
God of creation thank you for our children.
God of care, many people give of themselves in the care of our children. Their wide variety of skills and wisdom enable the Women's and Children's Hospital to be the place of care that it is.
God of care, thank you for the people who care.
God of love, when families bring their children into the hospital, we see their inspirational love and committment for their children.
God of love thank you for the love of families.
Our God, our children show amazing courage in the face of adversity and humble us with their strength of character.
Our God, thank you for our children's courage.
God of compassion, you share our pain and sit with us in the midst of our confusion and disbelief.
God of compassion, thank you for your committment to us, your compassion and your presence.
Amen.
From the Thanksgiving and Christmas Service of the Women's and Children's Hospital Adelaide, 2007.
 "TOUCH"
My heart, my longing desire My grief and anguish None could quench the thirst The search for an end to loneliness. My desire, my longing is for you O my God You, who knew me before I was born Yet I no understanding of your desire To fill my mind, and my heart Until, touched by your pain Enter into your suffering Im reminded of moments Reflecting totally your love. Those not in history But which physically touched me Sad, but glad And the grace, to have those treasured touches Of your sublime love. For though the longing wont cease Til I share in the glory of your heaven Im sustained, by the memories And by your touching - Touching Me Over and over Again.
Copyright Maria Zollo 2006 Allrights reserved



Amore, Cara, Teressa & Pieta.
Your preciousness, love and brightness shines forever more, in the glow of God's glory, you sing praises to our Lord.
Your memories never fade nor our hearts grow weary Time can never erase your divine beauty.
In our family, in our hearts into our lives you came

Like the flame & your names there forever you remain.
Copyright Maria Zollo 2006 All rights reserved.


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Heavens Bliss / Mummy's Angels Are So Very Loved And Remembered For Amore, Cara, Teressa &. Pieta
I imagine total bliss being wrapped in a garden - like this !As glorious as the heavens with the flowers of angels blooming - my heart is bursting with love for you. Mamma loves you always and forever ...
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Remembering Precious Baby Amore / Carol Pizzi (Angel Debbie's Mom )
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Thinking of your precious "Angels" above / Angela -. Daughter To Angel Linda Taylor
Always holding all of your lil' angels in my heart thoughts and prayers. God Bless.
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What is in my heart ........... anniversaries 2009 / Mamma Always Loving You All Precious Angels
An Open Letter to the Bereaved ..........
Loosing one loved one is devastating, two or more even many years apart is very "compounded" grief ............... not surprisingly you are not sure what to say/ or sure of yourself for you...
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Thinking of You, Cara, & Your Loving Family / Carol Pizzi (Angel Debbie's Mom )
Maria & Family, Remembering your beautiful Cara & sending you comfort & love.
May you always feel your Angels near.
Peace & Love to you always,
Carol ~ Angel Debbie's Mom
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HAPPY VALENTINE'S WISHES!! / Angela -- Daughter To Angel Linda Taylor Read >> |
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THINKING OF YOU... / Jeri ~Laquan's Mom~ ((((MEMORIAL FRIEND))) ) Read >> |
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Remembering Precious Pieta Today & Always / Carol Pizzi (Angel Debbie's Mom ) Read >> |
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For Pieta (& her sisters) on her 4th angelversary / Mummy, Daddy, Tiani, Mikari &. Jesse ZolloSemmler Family (Love you always and forever our darling angels Peter, Amore, Cara, Teressa,and Pieta. xxxxxxxxx ) Read >> |
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Thinking of you Pieta / Jenny Tavendale Mum To Ross Read >> |
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Special Delivery from Our Home to Yours / Dianne/Mom Of Angel Nicholas White (Connected by Angels ) Read >> |
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Merry Christmas from our family to yours... / The Outlaw Family Read >> |
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Happy Holidays lil' Angels... / Angela -. Daughter To Angel Linda Taylor Read >> |
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TCF Worldwide Candlelighting / Mamma For The Zollo Semmler Family Read >> |
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Happy Thanksgiving Angels! ((Maria)) / Carol Pizzi (Angel Debbie's Mom ) Read >> |
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